I really cannot believe I'm heading home soon. I'm so sad to be leaving SEA and Thailand in general.
I'm already planning (mentally) my next trip. But, then I'm also thinking I want to go to Hawaii and work on a farm for accommodation trade and practice yoga. Then I think, no I want to go to China and teach English in a village. Then, I think no! I want to come back to Thailand, teach English to monks and take holidays to travel around Laos, Cambodia, Vietnam. Sigh.
I love my country in so many ways but when I am away from America I think there is no reason (except for Hunnie & family of course) to go home. Why go home when I am already on the other side of the world. I am already so close to the next place, it's easy to travel on instead of traveling back to my organized western way of life. I'm used to living this way now. I'm adjusted to the heat, I am meeting lovely westerners everyday that are having amazing experiences. I feel blessed at every turn. I have local Thai "friends" (In quotes because they know I am leaving. They are sharing some of themselves with me yes, but they are also working, you have to understand this always--naivete cannot be there.)
I have nothing bad to say about my travels, sure I have had some discomforts and some times when it was difficult or sad but I am alive in Asia. The world feels open to me. I feel blessed and beautiful (inside) here.
Sad. Sad. Sad. to go home.
The flip side of course, there is always the other side, is that I get to kiss and hug my family, reconnect with Hunnie, love my nephew, squeeze & sniff Johnny cat! eat popcorn, watch a movie, drive, make money, take long walks with my girlfriends, COOK (I miss cooking so much), have a bath, stay up late chatting with Sissy, take a HOT shower, go home to the same place with all my things out of bags, every night. Both worlds are good. I can see this.
I'm already planning (mentally) my next trip. But, then I'm also thinking I want to go to Hawaii and work on a farm for accommodation trade and practice yoga. Then I think, no I want to go to China and teach English in a village. Then, I think no! I want to come back to Thailand, teach English to monks and take holidays to travel around Laos, Cambodia, Vietnam. Sigh.
I love my country in so many ways but when I am away from America I think there is no reason (except for Hunnie & family of course) to go home. Why go home when I am already on the other side of the world. I am already so close to the next place, it's easy to travel on instead of traveling back to my organized western way of life. I'm used to living this way now. I'm adjusted to the heat, I am meeting lovely westerners everyday that are having amazing experiences. I feel blessed at every turn. I have local Thai "friends" (In quotes because they know I am leaving. They are sharing some of themselves with me yes, but they are also working, you have to understand this always--naivete cannot be there.)
I have nothing bad to say about my travels, sure I have had some discomforts and some times when it was difficult or sad but I am alive in Asia. The world feels open to me. I feel blessed and beautiful (inside) here.
Sad. Sad. Sad. to go home.
The flip side of course, there is always the other side, is that I get to kiss and hug my family, reconnect with Hunnie, love my nephew, squeeze & sniff Johnny cat! eat popcorn, watch a movie, drive, make money, take long walks with my girlfriends, COOK (I miss cooking so much), have a bath, stay up late chatting with Sissy, take a HOT shower, go home to the same place with all my things out of bags, every night. Both worlds are good. I can see this.
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